Hey blog readers it’s me Howie Defranco and this week’s topic is healthy relationships. A healthy relationship is a mutually beneficial bond between to people based on mutual trust, mutual compromise and mutual interests. In this day and age finding something like that is getting harder and harder, just look at the topics we’ve wrote about so far here that are about relations between people. I mean the relationship, whether it be friendship, family or a love relation can turn bitter sweet, or even sour before you even know what caused it to turn. I’m going to talk today about the very healthy relationships I have in my life in contrast to the unhealthy ones I’ve had.
Let’s start off actually with sour and bitter sweet relationships, these come from a few different things, broken trust, heart ache, jealousy, unbalanced feelings and power struggle being the chief among them.
Broken trust is one that has haunted me quite a bit, it’s pulled me to the point where I went from being someone who trusted people until they did something wrong to someone who holds back more. There’s a lot that doesn’t go outside my inner circle that used to be public I didn’t care how much people knew about me because it was my life, why hide it? If you’ve read my depression blog you know I had a friend blow a secret I kept for basically a year and a half to the one person I was keeping it from. I’d say though the real kicker came about a year ago though, I did something I shouldn’t have… It is the one thing I refuse to share on this blog. To this day I regret getting involved in it and falling back on it for almost a year at my lowest points. I told a few people, just a few about it and of course next thing I know everyone knows. I told them to keep it secret but no, now I don’t mind that a few people know they know everything about my life but it pains me that some people, people that treat me differently because of it know.
There’s not much more I can say on heartache I haven’t said in a previous blog, it poisons a relationship. It can cause turmoil, feelings of doubt, and can turn you into someone you don’t like. So let’s move on to jealousy, when a person is jealous it can cause them to do things that cause the relationship to become unhealthy. These include but are not limited to, insults, belittling you, talking about you behind your back. The people in your life that turn out this way are what should be called two faced and unlike the batman villain you don’t see the other side till its to late.
Which brings us to unbalanced feelings, the person on one side cares way more than the person on the other side. I guess this category is pretty fitting for me, as I always seem to be the one that cares more. It almost always ends up hurting me, once again I refer to my depression blog but beyond that. Let’s start with the fact I’ve been friend zoned by almost every other girl I’ve ever liked beside Sarah. I can list them all in fake names just for fun here, Monica, Erica, Rita, Tina, Sandra, Mary, Jessica (please someone get the reference haha). Anyways it never ends well there’s a point yes we’re gets a bit better but there is that part of you that is always hurt the other person didn’t care as much as you.
Finally power struggle, this is where a person becomes that micro managing, controlling person we all know and love. I’m talking more so about the ones that it’s there way, no highway option, then just a person who is the leader of the friendship. Basically the person who decides everything, overshadows you, bosses you around and generally makes you feel small. I used to have a friend like that, we’ll call her Amy, like amazing Amy from Gone Girl. She basically controlled everything we did everything our group of friends did and got really upset when it wasn’t her way. So much so that when I finally just decided I was done with her she went behind my back and made some people I considered good friends stop spending time with me. Told them I wasn’t a good person and to stop hanging out with me, more than one person told me what she said. When I was friends with her though it felt like she always came first like I wasn’t as important as her. I’m a big guy and she’s the only person in this world that made me feel like I was Jiminy Cricket sized.
Let’s move on though and talk about what a healthy relationship looks like to describe it I’m going to talk about Raph, Leo, Karai, Mikey, Paris, Marie and Madison. Raph and Madison, are to very good friends of mine that I don’t get to see that much anymore. Well more since I joined time, I’ve helped them out of a couple jams and there always a phone call away if I need them despite the fact there always busy, then again so am I. Leo and Karai, first they just got married so happy for them, they live a few blocks from me and I see them probably once a week. They’re always there when I need them too and I’ve been there for them through some of there toughest times, were planning on moving out all together somewhere. In reference to Raph and Leo, I’ve given both a lot and they’ve paid me back in spades with their friendships for what I have done. Then there’s Mikey, now Mikey and I have drifted apart over the years and have only recently become close again but he’s probably the most understanding friend there is, and he always has my back and vice versa. Paris, oddly enough is a bond that was strengthened by unbalanced, her and I became closer because she knows how I feel about her. Which is kinda cool, she’s pretty awesome and never judges me for anything. Finally there’s Marie who with Madison invited me to be a part of this very organization, by doing so she’s given me something to do that’s helping me feel better about me and in return, I’m doing my best.
I love my friends through the good and the bad because at the end of the day we just make each other laugh and forget our worries, there are more I could of listed here but hey maybe they’ll be in another blog. I leave you with a final thought, what’s the point of a relationship if both people don’t feel good about themselves because of it.